Chapter 5 - Ryan Comes Home

Back in Blue Ash, the silence in our small home was suffocating.
I couldn't sit still. I paced between the living room and the kitchen, checking the monitor every three minutes to make sure Ellie was still asleep. She had tossed and turned, her little brow furrowed, but the warmth of the room had finally pulled her into a deep slumber.
On the kitchen island, my phone buzzed.
It was a text from Paige.
*Hannah, please call me when you can. Dad came home. Everything is falling apart. Mom is losing her mind. I am so, so sorry I didn't say anything earlier. I was terrified.*
I stared at the message, my thumb hovering over the glass. Terrified. Paige was thirty-four years old. She was an accountant with two kids of her own. And yet, Judith’s tyranny had kept her frozen in a state of perpetual childhood obedience.
Before I could reply, headlights swept across the blinds of the living room window.
A car door slammed. Heavy, hurried footsteps came up the porch stairs. The brass doorknob jiggled, followed by the metallic click of a key slipping into the lock.
The door opened an inch before catching hard against the heavy brass security chain I had slid into place twenty minutes earlier.
"Hannah?" Ryan's voice came through the crack, strained and panicked. "Hannah, open the door! It's me!"
I walked slowly to the foyer, stopping three feet from the jamb. I didn't reach for the chain.
"What do you want, Ryan?"
Through the four-inch gap, I could see his face. His hair was disheveled from the wind, his coat unbuttoned, his expression a chaotic mix of shock, fear, and frustration.
"What do you mean, what do I want? I live here! Let me in!"
"You stayed behind," I said, my voice dead and devoid of warmth. "You stayed with the woman who slapped me. You told me to go sit in the car like a dog while you had pie."
"I was trying to fix it!" he shouted through the gap, his voice cracking. "Hannah, you don't understand what just happened! Dad went crazy! He kicked Mom out! He literally threw her out of the house!"
A cold, sharp thrill ran down my spine, but my face didn't move. "Frank told her to leave?"
"Yes! He gave her twenty minutes! Paige is crying, Scott is in shock, and Mom is at the Residence Inn near Kings Island having a complete breakdown! Dad wouldn't even let me talk to him. He told me if I defended her, I wasn't his son anymore. Hannah, open the damn door so we can figure this out!"
"Figure what out, Ryan?" I asked, stepping closer so he could see my face in the dim porch light. I angled my jaw so the porch bulb illuminated the distinct, purplish-red finger marks Judith had left across my cheek.
Ryan stopped pushing against the door. His eyes locked onto the bruise. He swallowed hard.
"Hannah... I..."
"Did you look at my face before you sent me out into the snow?" I asked. "Did you look at Ellie’s dress? Did you see your mother grab our daughter’s wrist?"
"She shouldn't have done that," he stammered, looking away from my eyes. "I know she shouldn't have. But she's sixty-two years old, Hannah! She has high blood pressure! She was stressed about dinner—"
"She hit me, Ryan!" I hissed, the rage finally breaking through my skin. "She struck your wife in front of your family, called me trash, and threw our child out into the freezing cold! And your first instinct was to manage her feelings! You didn't care if Ellie was warm. You didn't care if my face was bleeding. You cared about Judith’s apple pie!"
"That's not fair!"
"It is entirely fair," I whispered. "You are thirty-two years old, and you are still more afraid of your mother than you are of losing your wife and daughter."
Ryan pressed his forehead against the doorframe, his breath frosting in the freezing air. "Hannah, please. It's Christmas Eve. Don't do this. Let me in. Let me see Ellie."
"Ellie is asleep," I said. "And she was terrified that you chose Grandma over her. You need to sleep somewhere else tonight."
"Hannah, this is my house!"
"And Frank thought that was Judith’s house," I replied coldly. "Go stay at the hotel with your mother. Go calm her down, Ryan. Since that’s your primary job in this life."
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I shut the door and slid the deadbolt into place.
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