Chapter 3

The drive back to our two-story colonial in Westerville felt like walking toward an executioner's block.
Holly had begged me to stay at her house. Aunt Carol had offered her guest bedroom. But I couldn't stay. A frantic, poisonous energy had seized my chest. I had to see it with my own eyes. I had to know the full depth of the pit we were standing over.
Adam drove his truck behind my Honda. Every time I looked in the rearview mirror, I could see his silhouette through the windshield, his hands running through his hair, his head shaking back and forth.
We pulled into the driveway at four-thirty. The neighborhood was quiet. Mrs. Gable across the street was raking leaves into a neat amber pile. Down the cul-de-sac, two kids were riding bicycles. Everything looked peaceful, domestic, safe. It was the house we bought four years ago, the house where we had painted the second-floor bedroom soft sage green with a white stencil border of woodland animals.
The front door had barely clicked shut behind us before I turned on him.
"Give me your phone."
Adam froze in the foyer. "Nat, let’s sit down in the kitchen. I'll make tea—"
"Give me your phone, Adam. Right now. Unlocked."
"You don't need to look through my private messages, Natalie. I will tell you everything. I'll lay it all out—"
"Unlock the phone and put it on this table, or I am walking across the street to call the police and tell them you’re holding my financial documents hostage." My voice was flat. Dead. There was no rage left, only a terrifying, cold certainty that made him blink.
He pulled his iPhone from his jacket pocket. His fingers shook as he tapped in the six-digit passcode. He laid it gently on the small entryway table, next to the ceramic bowl holding our spare house keys and grocery store discount cards.
I picked it up.
"Sit on the stairs," I told him. "Do not move."
He sat down on the bottom step, burying his head in his palms. His shoulders rose and fell with ragged breaths.
I opened his browser first.
Three tabs were active. Offshore sports betting platforms. Parlay calculators. Crypto exchanges with balances flashing zero in bright crimson font.
Then I went to his email.
I typed the word *Overdue* into the search bar.
Eighty-seven results popped up.
Electricity bill: final termination notice. Water bill: sixty days delinquent. The joint mortgage—the mortgage I gave him half my paycheck every single month to cover—was two months in arrears. A formal notice of pre-foreclosure proceedings had been emailed twelve days ago.
"The house?" I whispered, the phone shaking violently in my grip. "The house, Adam? You haven't paid the mortgage since August?"
"I was floating it!" he sobbed into his hands. "They give you ninety days before they file the lis pendens! I was going to hit a six-leg parlay on the NFL games last Sunday, Nat! I missed it by one field goal! Just one kick and we would have had fifty thousand dollars! We would have been completely clean!"
"You bet our mortgage on a football game?"
"I was trying to win it back! For you! For June!"
"Do not say her name!" I screamed, the sound tearing out of my chest with such raw fury that he shrank against the banister. "You do not get to gamble our baby's home and say it was for her!"
I opened his banking application. The balance in his checking account was negative four hundred and twelve dollars. His savings account had two dollars and fourteen cents.
Then I saw the loans.
A peer-to-peer lending app: $14,000 balance.
A high-interest tribal loan company: $8,500 balance at 180% APR.
Two cash-advance apps: maxed out to the limit.
My eyes burned as I did the rough mental arithmetic. With Uncle Robert’s money, Aunt Carol’s money, the back mortgage, and the predatory loans... the total was creeping over sixty thousand dollars.
Sixty thousand dollars of debt, hidden beneath seven years of smiling domesticity.
"Where is the nursery money?" I asked, looking up at him. "The five thousand dollars my parents left for their first grandchild before they died? The account you swore was locked in an eighteen-month CD?"
Adam didn't answer. He couldn't.
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He just kept crying into his open hands, his tears dripping onto the hardwood floor of the home we were about to lose.
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