Chapter 4 - Sunshine in Lisbon

The morning light in Lisbon was unlike anything I had ever seen. It wasn't the harsh, glaring white of a New York summer, nor the pale, washed-out gray of an upstate winter. It was golden, warm, and poured over the red-tiled roofs and pastel-colored buildings like honey.
I sat at a small, wrought-iron table outside a café in the historic district of Belém. The gentle hum of the city surrounded me: the clattering bell of a passing yellow tram, the distant cry of seagulls over the Tagus River, and the melodic, rhythmic cadence of the Portuguese language spoken by the morning commuters.
Across the table, Joyce was dabbing powdered sugar from her chin with a paper napkin, letting out a blissful sigh.
“Myrna,” she declared, pointing her small silver spoon at the warm pastry on her plate, “if I had known that a *pastel de nata* tasted like warm custard and cinnamon-dusted heaven, I would have divorced my first husband ten years earlier and moved here permanently.”
I laughed—a real, deep, unburdened laugh that felt like it had been locked in a dark room inside my chest for five years.
“Charles always promised we’d come here,” I said, looking out toward the sparkling blue water of the river. “Every anniversary. We’d buy a travel guide, circle the castles in Sintra, talk about taking a ferry across the bay, and then… life happened. A transmission would blow on the car. Caleb needed braces. Charles got promoted, then he got sick. We kept pushing it back, treating ‘someday’ like it was an infinite resource.”
“Well, you’re here now,” Joyce said softly, reaching across the table to squeeze my wrist. “And you look ten years younger than you did yesterday morning at Newark.”
My phone, resting inside my zipped leather crossbody bag, began to buzz.
I hadn't turned the cellular data back on until we reached the café. I had wanted the entire trans-Atlantic flight, the customs line, the cab ride, and our check-in at the boutique hotel to belong completely to me. But I knew the bill would eventually come due.
I pulled the phone out. The screen lit up with an international incoming call: *Caleb*.
Joyce noticed the sudden shift in my posture. Her cheerful smile faded into sympathetic understanding. “Do you want me to give you a minute?”
“No,” I said firmly, sitting up straight. “Stay right there, Joyce. I need a witness to my backbone.”
I slid my finger across the screen and brought the phone to my ear.
“Hello, Caleb.”
“Mom!” Caleb’s voice sounded frayed, paper-thin, and cracked with an ocean of static and anxiety. “Mom, oh thank God. Where are you? Are you okay?”
“I am in Lisbon, Caleb. I’m having an espresso in the sunshine.”
There was a heavy pause on the other end, followed by a shaky exhale. “Mom… how could you do this? How could you take the kids to Patrice’s house? Do you have any idea what’s happening right now? Patrice is threatening legal action! She’s demanding five thousand dollars! She’s talking about calling social services!”
I didn't raise my voice. I kept my tone as calm and measured as a tranquil sea.
“Patrice is holding you accountable, Caleb. That isn't cruelty; it’s reality.”
“Mom, we’re in Tokyo!” he pleaded, his voice rising into that familiar, petulant whine he had used since he was sixteen years old. “We’re literally twelve time zones away! We saved for this trip for two years! Tori has been crying in the hotel lobby for three hours. The whole vacation is ruined!”
“Caleb,” I interrupted, the coolness in my voice cutting right through his hysteria. “Did you receive my text message on April twelfth?”
Silence.
“Did you, Caleb?”
“Mom, I… I thought that was just an idea,” he stammered defensively. “You talk about trips all the time. You talked about Maine, you talked about pottery classes—”
“I sent you the confirmed booking reference, the flight numbers, and the dates,” I said, my voice hardening. “You replied with a thumbs-up. You didn't forget, Caleb. You simply gambled. You knew that if you asked me to cancel my trip, I would say no. So you and Tori decided to force my hand. You brought four innocent children to my house at dawn, dumped them like excess luggage, and ran to the airport, fully expecting that I would let my life burn to keep you warm.”
“Mom, we’re your family!” he cried.
“And I am your mother, not your domestic servant,” I replied. “Charles spent forty years making sure I knew I had value as a human being. The minute he died, you and your wife decided I was nothing more than an on-call babysitter with a vacant house. I allowed it because I was grieving, and because I loved those children. But the babysitting agency is permanently closed, Caleb.”
Suddenly, the phone was ripped away on his end. Tori’s shrill, furious voice blasted through the receiver.
“Myrna! You listen to me!” Tori screamed, completely abandoning any pretense of politeness. “You are completely selfish! How dare you humiliate me in front of my parents! Do you know what my father said to me on the phone? He told me I was an irresponsible mother! You orchestrated this whole thing to make me look bad! If anything happens to my children while they’re with my mother, I swear to God—”
“Victoria,” I said, using her full name for the first time in ten years. My voice was so quiet, so deadly sharp, that she actually stopped shouting mid-sentence.
“If you were truly concerned about your children,” I told her, “you wouldn't have abandoned them on a doorstep with a red folder and a handful of twenty-dollar bills. You left them because you wanted pictures for your social media feed. Patrice is feeding them, clothing them, and protecting them. If your vacation is ruined, look in the mirror. You bought the ticket; now you have to take the ride.”
“Myrna, if you don't call my mother and fix this—”
“Have a lovely time in Tokyo, Victoria,” I said.
I pulled the phone from my ear and tapped the red *End Call* button.
Then, without a single moment of hesitation, I opened my settings, navigated to contacts, and blocked both of their numbers.
My hands were shaking slightly, but my chest felt lighter than it had in a decade. I looked up. Joyce was staring at me, her eyes wide with unadulterated admiration.
“Well,” Joyce whispered, slowly raising her small porcelain coffee cup. “Remind me never to cross you, Myrna Henderson.”
I picked up my cup, clinked it against hers, and took a long, hot sip.
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“Now,” I said, smiling as the Atlantic breeze rustled the café awning, “let’s go see that castle.”
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